比悲伤更悲伤的故事

I'm a person that dwells in the past, thinking of the happy moments in my life and those that I regretted in life. It is just a matter of time before they all catches up with me. I've tried to look forward in life, by learning Thai-boxing and Brazilian Jujitsu to numb the pain and regrets. But every now and then, these flashback still occurs.

I recently watch a movie "比悲伤更悲伤的故事". It really touches me deep within my heart. I feel it is alright to express your emotion to those you love as you might never know when you will lose them from your life. Have you tried holding your tears back, but it just seems to follow endlessly down your cheek? I tried...

"We should never had left our mistakes to the next generation", enjoy this MTV for 比悲伤更悲伤的故事.

Feeling the pain and sorrow.

It has been two month since I've started learning Brazilian Jujitsu and after every lesson, I'll be filled with dark bruises all over my arms and legs. And before bed, I would sit in front of the mirror and start rubbing those bruises. For I can't shake those fearful memories of losing someone, knowing that I could have done something but instead I've chose to walk away.

Pain has always been part of my life, both emotionally and physically. Maybe it has always been an option of escape for me. The moment I've learn that nothing last forever, it makes accepting pain a much easier option.

I'm glad that I've seen life in a different prospective and that I pity those that seek comfort in their sorrow expecting a miracle to happen. Sometimes in life we tend to make wrong decision, but learn from those mistakes and standing up against all odds is a lesson that can only be taught by yourself. Like 3 times World Brazilian Jujitsu Champion Marcelo Garcia said "Losing Is Only When You Gave Up..."

Let us enjoy this song "Sadness and Sorrow" by Toshiro Masuda

To hurt or to be hurt...

It been a long time since I've update this blog. Well the reason is simple, I'm busy... I'm in the business of hurting people, that is because I enjoy it. I've been learning Brazilian Jujitsu, where pain is part of the learning process and I'm starting to enjoy it.

Muaythai will always be my first love. The sound of bone cracking into bone might send chill down to many people but Muaythai ain't that bad, well at least it is safer than some other sports. I would say that Muaythai is safer than Brazilian Jujitsu. In Brazilian Jujitsu, every technique is capable to destroying a limp or an arm. Some technique are so devastating that it could ruin the life of a person.

I'll name a technique perform in several movies including James Bond: Casino Royal. It is called the rear neck choke. It is basically getting on the back of your opponent and sink your arm around his neck and perform the choke by cutting the air into the windpipe. If perform correctly, this technique could result in death or brain damage. I've attach a video of it.

Tango... or Mango?

Reminds me of the usual boost drink I always had. I'll be going for my first Tango lesson this thursday. It is more of a try and error sort of situation, but I'm more or less prepare for it. And I'll be signing up for a 6 month membership with Griffin University gym at a cost of $150, considering the high end lifestyle the Aussies are living. This is probably the cheapest gym I could find in Australia and its relatively close to where I'm staying.

This semester is pretty much gotta drain the very soul and strength out of me, I've taken a 48 credit research project which span for a year and another 12 credit Unix project. It sound crazy for most students, but it is the only and fastest path to reaching the entry point for PHD. (But I doubt I'll be taking PHD)

Nonetheless, my goal for this semester is to attain 3 HI-DIST or if worse come to worse 3 DIST. Anything lesser than that and I'll be disappointed in myself. I know I'm placing alot of pressure on myself, but this is the least I could do for my parents.

Learning Brazilian Jiu Jitsu was one of my most important goals in life. I'm not gotta be a mix martial art fighter or sort. I'm just learning it so that it covers the 3 aspects of street fighting, the 3 aspects were "Striking", "Clinching" and "Ground Techniques".

I can't really say I'm a pretty good striker, but well I manage keep up with my BXG muaythai instructors during several occasions, and they're damn good at what they do best "FIGHTING". So I've decide to process on to another discipline Brazilian Jiu Jitsu. If time really permits me, I'll probably sign up for the Brazilian Jiu Jitsu class at University of Queenlands. But for the time being, it seems that studies has to come first.

Tough Times Ahead...

Argh... God has gotta be making fun of me. This is the second time a scholarship has slip through my fingers. It was like so close and yet its gone. I'm total disappointed in myself. I've been like straight bad luck and nothing seems to be going smoothly. I'll be considering myself lucky that I wouldn't have waste money on fines or unwanted expenses.

I've lost a total of 5k worth of scholarship, the first scholarship was so close to me. All I needed was like 2 marks to hit the tresholds of the scholarship and yet I've miss it. Now, it would be my foolish mistake that I've made that cost me 2k worth of scholarship. Maybe it is me and my luck, but I know I've never been a lucky person.

I can only achieves with determination and hardship, 宝贝 and I has been thinking of taking the tango classes in QU for quite some time. We will be making our first trip down to QU tomorrow night to enquire and if everything goes well, we will probably entrol for it.

As for Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, I'll be leaving it aside for the time being. I'm kinda worry about my studies as this semester is a roller coast ride on thin air and I'm all alone on this ride. I'll just have to see how it goes.

Part II of 新年快乐

Vietnam a country that has survived over 100 years of civil war. Leaving the country in destruction, despair and making it one of the poorest country in south-east Asia till date.

Vietnam war or also known as the second indochina war which started in 1959 till 1975. The war was fought between the communist North Vietnam (supported by China, North Korea and the Soviet Union) and South Vietnam (supported by the United States and several other countries) leaving more than 4 million Vietnamese, 2 million Laotians and Cambodians, and 58,159 U.S. soldiers dead.

But the most significant is the story of "My Lai" Massacre in March 16, 1968 where American Soldiers mass murder close to 500 unarmed civilian ranging from womens to childrens of all ages, wiping out an entire village and raping the womens. But out of the 46 American soldier charged of criminal offences, only William Calley is charge of war crimes and was sentences to a life-time in prison but was release 3 days after his conviction.

Basically, war only brings more pain and misery. But like all countries, there are trouble times in history and there are time of peaces. Vietnam is one such country, and it is their time to pull themselves together to build a stronger and better nation.

I'll post some photos of my trip in Vietnam. But I'll not post anything regarding about the Vietnam war. If you're interested just search Vietnam or Vietcong on google or youtube for more information.

Part I of 新年快乐

今天已经是初九了，时光不留人。As it seems I've just came back from Vietnam which ends my 8 days tour through out China and Vietnam. China is no longer the country I've visited 10 years ago, much has change and the chinese has progress a long way to reach to where they were now.

Through out my 8 days traveling in China, I've visited places like 桂林, 阳朔 和 南宁。They are all cities of Guang Xi. But the most memoriable part in China was the trip to the 龙胜 和 “印象刘三姐”。龙胜 provides me a glimpse of how 当地少数民族 celebrate their 农历新年。But it also portrayed the harsh conditions the local villagers has to cope with every day. Knowing that the chinese government are trying all means to aid these 当地少数民族 by bring tourism and supplies to their area, makes me feel that the prospects ahead for these villagers might still be visible.

“印象刘三姐” was one of the most stunning and beautiful performance I've ever seen, other than Olympics 2008 open ceremony which was directed by the same director “张艺谋” or Zhang Yimou。I could say “印象刘三姐” was the smaller version of Olympic 2008, but still it never fails to amaze me with what the chinese are capable of. China really deserves to be what it is today.

As for my trip in Vietnam I'll be writting it in Part II of 新年快乐...and I'll be writting the remaining section of these blog entry in chinese.

宝贝听说你的病情已经好很多了，我也为你开心因为那也表示你半夜不在会那么痛了。我也没那么操心了。不到十日我们又能再见面了，到时候我便能再次照顾你了。我是因为见不到你所以会天天为你操心和担心。希望你早日康复。。。你听到了吗？到时我们再次吃nandos, 但是peri chips我吃！哈哈哈！我爱你！还有我也越来越喜欢中国了，真的是让我感兴趣。改次我们一起去玩好吗？呵呵！

还有。。。宝贝！宝贝！宝贝万岁！万岁！万万岁！

Welcome to the year of the OX!

Well, there goes my year the year of the "Rat" and welcome to the year of the OX! I'm praying that this year will be a better year for my 宝贝whom is having 阑尾炎 or appendicitis, whom I'm really worried for her. I'm kinda frustrated of myself for not being able to be by her side when she needed me.

宝贝if you're reading this, please get well soon! I promise I wouldn't stuff you with oily and fatty food anymore or maybe the just Nandos ok? and your problem is always my problem because you're my 宝贝ok? 宝贝!宝贝! 宝贝万岁........! 宝贝! 宝贝! 宝贝万岁....! 宝贝万万岁....

As for me, 我会在中国过新年 or I'll be celebrating my Chinese New Year in China with my entire family. Well, thats because my dad wanted something special this year and my mum wanted to have a "BANG BANG" 新年 with fireworks. As for me, I just wanted some quality family time as it has been quite some time since the entire family had a holiday together.

Well, 我的新年愿望是希望宝贝快点好！宝贝听到了吗？and to end the war in Gaza, with peace through out the world. Recently, I've seen a documentary with children being killed in war that doesn't belongs to them. Just by watching the documentary, I can feel the pain and hatred in the eyes of the Palestinian. Its so sad....

Dirty War - Israel/Palestine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KKma5eW7_sw&feature=channel

A song delicated to my 宝贝， 希望你快点好。。。

New Resolution for the New Year...

I've just came back from thailand a couple of days ago, the situation in thailand wasn't as bad as it seems. With a new government, comes a new resolution. But still it is worth being on your balls a little, just in case.

Well, I've recently recieved my offer letter from Queenland University of Technology to enable me to pursue my studies in the field of information technology. It will take me another 1 and a half years to complete my Masters program. And with the current economic downturn, I doubt I'll be able to find a job.

For the time being, I'll be meeting up with some of my friends and spend some quality time with my family and focus more on my thai-boxing. I don't know whether it is me or am I slowing getting use to the aussies lifestyle. I know Singapore ain't a bad country, except with the rising of prices in everything, ERP, freedom of speeches and the lack of courage to stand up against what we believe is right.

Still it is my country and my home, where I've been living of the past 20 years. But after such exposure in countries like Australia. I'm afraid that I've to say Singapore is no longer the home I use to know. Its kinda disappointing... Maybe, our country is still young and has still lots of things to learn. I don't know or maybe, hope is still out there.

Here are some pictures I've taken on my trip in thailand, btw "MyPhotoAlbum" account has been suspensed and I've no intention of getting it fix. So I'll post my photos on blogspot from now onwards. Thank you.