比悲伤更悲伤的故事

I'm a person that dwells in the past, thinking of the happy moments in my life and those that I regretted in life. It is just a matter of time before they all catches up with me. I've tried to look forward in life, by learning Thai-boxing and Brazilian Jujitsu to numb the pain and regrets. But every now and then, these flashback still occurs.

I recently watch a movie "比悲伤更悲伤的故事". It really touches me deep within my heart. I feel it is alright to express your emotion to those you love as you might never know when you will lose them from your life. Have you tried holding your tears back, but it just seems to follow endlessly down your cheek? I tried...

"We should never had left our mistakes to the next generation", enjoy this MTV for 比悲伤更悲伤的故事.

Feeling the pain and sorrow.

It has been two month since I've started learning Brazilian Jujitsu and after every lesson, I'll be filled with dark bruises all over my arms and legs. And before bed, I would sit in front of the mirror and start rubbing those bruises. For I can't shake those fearful memories of losing someone, knowing that I could have done something but instead I've chose to walk away.

Pain has always been part of my life, both emotionally and physically. Maybe it has always been an option of escape for me. The moment I've learn that nothing last forever, it makes accepting pain a much easier option.

I'm glad that I've seen life in a different prospective and that I pity those that seek comfort in their sorrow expecting a miracle to happen. Sometimes in life we tend to make wrong decision, but learn from those mistakes and standing up against all odds is a lesson that can only be taught by yourself. Like 3 times World Brazilian Jujitsu Champion Marcelo Garcia said "Losing Is Only When You Gave Up..."

Let us enjoy this song "Sadness and Sorrow" by Toshiro Masuda

To hurt or to be hurt...

It been a long time since I've update this blog. Well the reason is simple, I'm busy... I'm in the business of hurting people, that is because I enjoy it. I've been learning Brazilian Jujitsu, where pain is part of the learning process and I'm starting to enjoy it.

Muaythai will always be my first love. The sound of bone cracking into bone might send chill down to many people but Muaythai ain't that bad, well at least it is safer than some other sports. I would say that Muaythai is safer than Brazilian Jujitsu. In Brazilian Jujitsu, every technique is capable to destroying a limp or an arm. Some technique are so devastating that it could ruin the life of a person.

I'll name a technique perform in several movies including James Bond: Casino Royal. It is called the rear neck choke. It is basically getting on the back of your opponent and sink your arm around his neck and perform the choke by cutting the air into the windpipe. If perform correctly, this technique could result in death or brain damage. I've attach a video of it.

Tango... or Mango?

Reminds me of the usual boost drink I always had. I'll be going for my first Tango lesson this thursday. It is more of a try and error sort of situation, but I'm more or less prepare for it. And I'll be signing up for a 6 month membership with Griffin University gym at a cost of $150, considering the high end lifestyle the Aussies are living. This is probably the cheapest gym I could find in Australia and its relatively close to where I'm staying.

This semester is pretty much gotta drain the very soul and strength out of me, I've taken a 48 credit research project which span for a year and another 12 credit Unix project. It sound crazy for most students, but it is the only and fastest path to reaching the entry point for PHD. (But I doubt I'll be taking PHD)

Nonetheless, my goal for this semester is to attain 3 HI-DIST or if worse come to worse 3 DIST. Anything lesser than that and I'll be disappointed in myself. I know I'm placing alot of pressure on myself, but this is the least I could do for my parents.

Learning Brazilian Jiu Jitsu was one of my most important goals in life. I'm not gotta be a mix martial art fighter or sort. I'm just learning it so that it covers the 3 aspects of street fighting, the 3 aspects were "Striking", "Clinching" and "Ground Techniques".

I can't really say I'm a pretty good striker, but well I manage keep up with my BXG muaythai instructors during several occasions, and they're damn good at what they do best "FIGHTING". So I've decide to process on to another discipline Brazilian Jiu Jitsu. If time really permits me, I'll probably sign up for the Brazilian Jiu Jitsu class at University of Queenlands. But for the time being, it seems that studies has to come first.

Tough Times Ahead...

Argh... God has gotta be making fun of me. This is the second time a scholarship has slip through my fingers. It was like so close and yet its gone. I'm total disappointed in myself. I've been like straight bad luck and nothing seems to be going smoothly. I'll be considering myself lucky that I wouldn't have waste money on fines or unwanted expenses.

I've lost a total of 5k worth of scholarship, the first scholarship was so close to me. All I needed was like 2 marks to hit the tresholds of the scholarship and yet I've miss it. Now, it would be my foolish mistake that I've made that cost me 2k worth of scholarship. Maybe it is me and my luck, but I know I've never been a lucky person.

I can only achieves with determination and hardship, 宝贝 and I has been thinking of taking the tango classes in QU for quite some time. We will be making our first trip down to QU tomorrow night to enquire and if everything goes well, we will probably entrol for it.

As for Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, I'll be leaving it aside for the time being. I'm kinda worry about my studies as this semester is a roller coast ride on thin air and I'm all alone on this ride. I'll just have to see how it goes.